Hi, friends. Last weekend, I attended an event called Fruitful Leadership in Ministry. My pastor has to plan a new community service/mission project as part of the process to become ordained in the Methodist church.
The day was long but rewarding. The room looked diverse–white people, black people, old people, young people, men, women. Diversity accurately reflects the eclectic body of Christ.
A question was posed to each of us–what is discipleship or how would you define a disciple?
A young pastor who couldn’t have been more than 5-10 years older than me (I’m 25) responded “Wrestles with God.” [Referencing Genesis 32:22-31]
The phrase resonated with me–
Me: “I like that answer…’Wrestles with God’…that is so me lately.”
My Pastor: “There comes a point in a Christian’s life when their parents’ religion becomes their own.”
As a young adult directly between ages 20 and 30, I am walking through that season of my spiritual journey right now–the season of my parents’ religion becoming my own and wrestling with God to seek Him, understand Him, and trust Him.
Some people enter this stage earlier in life, though I don’t think most teenagers are mature enough to wrestle with God yet, which is part of the reason they stop attending church for a few years after high school.
Some people never reach this stage at all because God is more or less a figurine on the mantle–a belief to be compartmentalized and stored away for Sunday mornings or just special occasions.
As I balk at rules in Leviticus and conquests in Joshua, I wrestle with God.
As I feel Paul’s words on Christian community rebuking my every minute personality flaw, I wrestle with God.
As I jot notes, stars, and question marks in the margins of my Bible, I wrestle with God.
As I sit by myself, reading and sobbing over stories, verses, and even phrases like “If only I could touch the hem of His cloak,” I wrestle with God.
I wrestle with God because growth requires movement.
Thanks for reading! When did your parents’ religion become your own? Do you wrestle with God? Let me know in the comments.